My Love, Will You Be My Friend?


this valentine’s
i dont ask for a lover
i ask for a friend
i dont ask you to wipe my tears
i ask you to listen to the reason behind my tears
i dont ask you to give me a thousand kisses
i ask you to give me a single hug
i dont want a lover
Just be my friend


A Little Honour

Every year, diseases like dengue, malaria, chikungunya and other tropical monsters take a toll on Delhi. People fall ill, some die, some survive, to remember the pain.

This year, in the summer of 2010, Delhi faced the worst outbreak of dengue fever in which numerous died. Yes, probably even hundreds. The newspapers were too timid to admit the numbers. The official number of  dengue deaths  probably never went beyond 10. But I know….I know because 2 of my friends succumbed….they fought and fought..only to lose.

I believe that every soul on this earth does smothing good. Even the worst of criminals deserve a little honour when they die. In the case of my senior in college: he was probably one of the best people I knew…one of the best that I will ever know.

He was the typical sweet, helpful kind. Ever-so-bright and smiling, Kinshuk would hobble towards us every morning in college and greet us, never letting us feel like strangers in this new place. We were in the first year and he was in his second. He guided us, he inspired us. one day before the exams commenced, he texted us all to wish us good luck, and to remind us that the real tests of life have begun.

Yes, he was right. The real tests had begun. It is a test for us to remember him and his memory. To remain inspired by that bright smile and brighter personality. I dont know if I will be succesful…but I do know that I want to try my best to become like him. A friend-guide to all the poeple I know-close or distant.

Here is my little ode to him. Thank you Kinshuk for coming into my life. Wish you would have stayed longer.

I miss you…

Only So Far

I never knew you quite well,

but I knew you enough

You touched a chord,

and that is what matters

Its amazing how wonderful people can be

and heartbreaking when they leave thee.

But how far have you gone?

I wonder…

only so far as we think

for the world you have entered

spaces unknown,

where the line between hell and heaven

comes into view.

But me, I think you are still

trapped within the walls of my heart

unable to take a step out of it.

It is perhaps the body which decays

perhaps the soul which travels,

but the memories, the emotions

never go away

unless we

push them into the far corners of our minds.

But with you

this is going to be difficult,

every step I take,

everything I do,

I will try and get some inspiration from you.

So that someday I too become

and feel a person as lovely as you

So that one day people

remember me for that smile

as beautiful as yours

I will never push you out of my heart

that is not a promise

that is a binding,

a compulsion

because it is not easy

to forget someone

who leaves a mark, teaches you

and changes your life forever!

I will miss you! But how much I wonder!

After all you are in my heart

you are only so far as I think you are